Junjin - Andy in Yashimmanman 061127

PSH: Jun Jin, have you ever caused your parents pain that you regret now?
JJ: I really didn't want to talk about this.. Ah, seriously. Right now I wanted to say thanks to my mom because she found me my biological mom. My mom right now found my biological mom. Ever since I was young, I always got stress thinking about the idea of my biological mom. With that lonely thought, 3 or 4 years ago my mom found my biological mom for me. Around 1 or 2 PM, I was at a coffee shop waiting for an hour when someone walked in. I felt that sense of 'oh she's my mom' right when she walked in. This is the person who I've never met since I was born. For an hour or two, we just sat crying. After that meeting, I didn't keep in touch with her because she told me she has a younger son who looks just like me. She told me not to contact her until he's an adult because he shouldn't go through this pain. She doesn't want to cause another person the same pain and said he probably has a good life right now. If she sees this program, she's going to want to see me, but..

PSH: Jung ah, you too?..
PJA: I lived with my grandma since middle school. It seems like a lot of parents are divorced these days. When I was in middle school, my parents got divorced and... my mom has diabetes and would go to the hospital by herself. One day I told her next time you need to go to the hospital, I'll take you in the morning and go with you. I promised her that. The night before, I was just on the internet web surfing and reminded myself that I should call her before I go to bed. I watched some TV and.. the phone rang all of a sudden. My mom had collapsed. Right before I came on the program and heard today's topic about pains that you've caused your parents, just hearing that question made my heart heart. The reason why is just in those moments when I was doing 'something' my mom lost a minute of her memory. It seems like we always wonder what if. What if I had called her 10 minutes earlier. Even when I'm having a good day, I seem to think about that what if. I find myself thinking this is all my fault all the time. I never thought this sort of thing could happen to me since I was young and didn't know what life consisted of. You always think your parents will be by your side forever and love you but at any time, someone important and valuable to you can be in pain. I always think about this.
PSH: Is there something you want to say to your mom?
PJA: I want to eat my mom's kimchijjigae.
PSH: Whenever I see Park Jung Ah on TV, she's always smiling. I never imagined her to have this sort of pain.

PSH: Has anyone here ever runaway from home? Jun Jin, yeah. Park Jung Ah!?? Jung Ah, you've run away from home before? Jun Jin, I'm sorry. Jun Jin ran away from home, ok. Without even me knowing, I was startled that Park Jung Ah ran away from home. Why did you run away from home Park Jung Ah?
PJA: It was just a wind moment (as in everyone goes through it). I didn't do anything bad that made me runway.
PSH: Running away is the bad deed.
PJA: I even went to school even though I ran away from home. Whenever I did something bad my dad would take me to this mountain where I had to climb to save my life. We would have our safety belts on and there was a place we would take a break. We would rest there and my dad would say to me.. I don't know if my dad's too tough or not but.. 'If you're going to live like this, then let's just cut this rope' You and I, let's just drop down. He said he couldn't watch me grow up and not be an honest, good daughter. I think from then on, I started to get my act straight.
PSH: There's that saying 'Those who grow up getting hit (spanked) grow up to respect and obey their parents'.
PSH: We have to listen to Jun Jin's story about running away.
JJ: It just seemed like my relationship with my dad was in disorder and I was a boy in puberty. I was really scared of my dad and this is how much I was scared of my dad. 11 PM was my curfew, if it was 11:05, my dad would be waiting over there with his hair tied with his leather jacket on in a scary pose like the character in that comic. Exactly 5 or 10 minutes late, he'd be there. By 11:02, he would come out with a cigarette getting his body loose. He would have the stick in his jacket and you couldn't see it like this, but if he did this, it would come out. One time he said, 'if you don't want to get hit, block me' knowing that I couldn't block, that's when I ran away from home. This is something I heard from my mom, she told me he said 'If it's hard living out there, he'll come back home. Don't worry about him. You got to raise a man like a man'
PJA: Jun Jin is a man so it's okay but what about my dad? Why did he raise me like that? You know how on top of the moutain there's a little store that sells Soju and stuff. My dad would set up camp and just give me the eye and say 'Go' and I would run up taking 30 minutes to buy kim and other stuff.
JJ: My dad..
PSH: Are you trying to compete with each other?
JJ: You can read my dad's expression if he wants you to go buy something, his expression will slowly start to change and I'd go 'Ok'.